moments

before i thought this song is about breaking-up but its actually its worse than breaking-up.the saddest song i ever heard.its very touching and emotional.to be honest every time i hears it i can feel the hurt.someone you love the most died.imagine it,your boyfriend would kill himself just to be with you in another life.so as Ed Sheeran(the writer of the song) said,its about a guy who couldn't accept the fact that his girlfriend killed herself.the only way to get over her death is to commit suicide (because he cant live without her).he's wishing if he could turn back time and tell her,he would be everything so she didn't have to kill herself:"you know i'll be your life,your voice,your reason to be,my love,my heart is breathing for this moment in time i'll find the words to say before you leave me today." he ends his life by jumping of a building and memories that flash before his eyes before he jumps:flashing light in my mind,going back to the time,playing games in the street,kicking balls with my feet,as i feel myself fall make a joke of it all". the song is filled with depression,sadness and hurt.


MOMENTS LYRICSShut the door
Turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this
Even though I try
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands touch skin
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time

[Chorus:] You know I’ll be your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moment in time
I’ll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

Close the door,
Throw the key,
Don’t wanna be reminded Don’t wanna be seen
Don’t wanna be without you My judgement’s clouded
Like tonights night sky

And a silent Voice is numb
Trying to scream out my lungs
It makes this harder And the tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time

[Repeat Chorus]

Flashing lights in my mind
Goin’ back to the time
Playin’ games in the street
Kickin’ balls with my feet

There’s a numb in my toes
Standing close to the edge
There’s a pile of my clothes
At the end of your bed

As I feel myself fall,
Make a joke of it all

[Repeat Chorus x 2]

how sad is that?

harry styles imagine 2

Imagine#

You have been dating Harry for a year and half right now. Now Harry and the boys is on tour for 3 months. You’re missing him so much. after shower, you went to put on Harry’s oversize T-Shirt and wears a short pants. You went down and turn on the tv. You saw Harry being Interview. Cant help but smile when he talks about you. after the interview ended, you decided you go out with some of you friends. You went to the book store to buy some novel when you overheard Harry’s fan were talking about him.

Fan 1: harry is just so handsome and charming. i’m sure his girlfriend is so lucky. 

You smile and think “yes i’m so lucky to have him”

Fan 2:  but i don’t think so..

Suddenly you lean in closer to listen without making them realize it’s you (harry styles girlfriend)

Fan 1: why?

Fan 2: my gosh Kylie, have you not seen Sunday mirror magazine? It’s on the front page. Harry was    kissing Emma Ostilly.

Fan 1: He did what???

You didn’t care about them anymore, you rush to the magazine section and saw there’s a whole rack is full of magazine front page of “HARRY STYLES AND HIS 1.20am KISS” 

you took one of the magazine and pay it. You left your friends and headed home. You were reading the magazine when Harry called. It took a long while till you pick up.

Harry: Hello Love..what took you so long to pick up?  Anyway how are you?

You: Hey Harry.. i’m fine. Just fine.

You sound a bit annoyed.

Harry: are you alright my love?

You: yes!

Harry: are you sure? Cause you don’t sound fine.

You: i’m fine Harry! How many times must i tell you?

You yelled but Harry stayed calm.

Harry: i’m so sorry if i annoyed you, i just want to tell you that i miss you and i will..

You sigh thinking that this is bullshit.

You: Harry, got to go. Call me some other time.

Before Harry could reply, you already turn off the phone. Leaving Harry confused. He looked at Louis.

Louis: what’s  the matter Haz?

Harry: [y/n]. I don’t know what is wrong with her.  She cut me off and turned off the phone. She had never done something like this before. She even yelled.

Louis: maybe its that certain time of month?

Harry looked down.

Harry: i don’t know lou.

Louis: don’t worry ‘bout it man.  come on, we got to go now or else we’ll missed the plane.  The sooner 

you get on the plane, the sooner you’ll see [y/n].

Harry: you’re right lou.

Harry hop on the plane with the rest of the boys while you sit there looking at the magazine  cover.  A lot of things runs in your mind right now. You flip the magazine. Not wanting to look at it anymore. You lay on the couch hugging the pillow with the scent of harry’s natural musk. You don’t know what to do. Should you call him for explanation? But you really don’t want to talk to him right now. You’re just so mad at him. You cried till you fall asleep.  2 hours later you woke up. Feeling unusual. Well of course, cause you cried to sleep. You went to the kitchen and get yourself a glass of water hoping it would make you feel better. You look around the house that you shared with harry. Suddenly you heard  door closed upstairs. You thought “harry is on tour, that couldn’t be him.” So you grab a knife, and slowly walk upstairs without making any sound. As you opened the door you saw Harry.

Harry: hey babe.. woah.. what is that knife for?

you saw harry, you relief. You rolled your eyes and lower the knife because before you were aiming it at harry.

You: you scared me!!

He laugh then you walked out of the room followed by him.

Harry:  i’m sorry babe. i didn’t want to wake you up.  You look like you’re in a deep sleep. I figure out that you must be tired so i didn’t bother waking you up... So is that how you going to defend yourself? With a knife? You could get kill by your own weapon.

You turn to look at him and he smiles. You look at his innocent smile, as if he never kissed someone else while he’s dating you. you looked at the knife and look back to harry with a furious look. You went to the kitchen to put the knife back.

Harry: babe, why do you look so upset?

You: well who wouldn’t?

Harry: why?

You look at harry across you. he was in front of the bar while you were at the back of the bar. You close your eyes and turn around, trying so hard to hold back tears. Trying not to fight. when harry suddenly slams his hand on the table.

Harry: [y/n] answer me!!

He yelled.  You knew that he was angry. You looked at his green eyes while tears starts to fill yours. He looked into your eyes. Knowing that you were actually hurt. Guilt starts to overcome him cause he knows that you don’t like to be yelled at. You ran into your room and lock the door. He ran after you. he tried to open the door but its locked.

Harry: babe.. babe i am so sorry. I didn’t mean to yelled at you. please open the door. We can settle things out without fighting right?  Remember our  1month anniversary promises?

You: i do.

Harry: great. Now open the door babe.

You: NO!!

You slide down, turn your back to the door and cried so hard. He didn’t want to push you too much cause he know what you are capable of. He can actually hear you sobbing.

Harry: okay okay.. maybe we can just talk like this with this door in between us but please just don’t hurt yourself in there.  Tell me what’s wrong. What has been bothering you?

You: everything Harry! Everything is bothering me! You’re always on tour and i don’t know what you’re doing while you’re away cause i’m waiting for you here.

Harry slides down too.

Harry: is that what’s bothering you babe? Sweetheart you know you can trust me while..

You interruped.

You: that was before. Now i don’t think i can trust you anymore after what you’ve done when you were in New Zealand.

Harry: what happen in New Zealand?

Harry puzzled.

You: you were kissing with Emma Ostilly!!

Harry: what?! How did you know that?

You: harry, you are not a nobody anymore. You are one of the popular group one direction, harry. Of course i would know.

Harry: but baby, it was nothing. It was just a friendly kiss..

You: on the lips with your hand on her waist and her hand on your neck? More like a passionate kiss to me!!

Harry: look..what can i do to make it up to you? i am so sor..

You: oh so you’re saying that it was a real kiss?

Harry: NO!!

He slaps his face. He said to himself “damn harry you messed up!!”

Harry: i am so sorry i messed up plus i was drunk.

You:  oh great you can kiss any girl you want when you’re drunk just because you’re drunk!! Damn it harry!!

You slams your hand to the door.

Harry: she was the one who kissed me. What do you want me to do so i can make it up to you?

You: leave harry! Just leave!

Harry: NO!! I DONT WANT TO LEAVE AND YOU CAN’T MAKE ME LEAVE YOU!!

Harry start to cry. You opened the door ..

You: FINE!! THEN I’LL LEAVE!

You ran out of the house. It was raining.

Harry: please don’t.

He chase you, pulls you closer, brings you to him and he hugs you really tight.

Harry: i know i messed up about this. I cant be more sorry than i am now. I know i shouldn’t have kissed her. I would do anything just to make you forgive me and stay with me. I don’t want to loose you. i love you so much. I called this morning cause  i wanted to tell you that i’m coming back. But you didn’t let me finish. Babe, Emma is nobody to me. You’re everything to me.  What can i do to make you forgive me? 

You know that you’re being quite selfish but you just wasn’t ready to forgive on what harry did. You know you’re wrong for letting go. You close your eyes for a deep thinking whether you should forgive him or not. You looked at his green eyes. His eyes were like begging you to forgive him. You put your arms around his neck to hug him. Even thou you’re short, you’re standing on the tip of your toe. He put his arms around your waist. Resting his chin on you shoulder.

You: i’m so sorry for not trusting you babe.. it just.. you know.. you’re the hot. You’re every girls dream. You’re the sweetest guy i ever met and i could go on and on about this but let me just cut to it. I love you so much too. I couldn’t help but feel jealous whenever you are with someone that is way better than me.

Harry: babe, don’t be silly. You are amazing. You are the most amazing person i ever met.  You’re everything i ever wanted in a girl. I’m glad i’m the one who found you before the other boys did.

He was already teasing you then he kiss you gently. 

Harry: let’s get you inside. I don’t want you to catch a cold cause i’m taking you on tour with me.

You smile and kiss him again.

Niall Horan facts

Niall Horan from One Direction but Niall isn't my favorite but i still love him thou.

         

Next i'll be posting bout Harry.he's my favorite.

Harry styles imagine

(this is not mine i found it on tumblr and i find it so sad and i almost cried.thought it would be nice to share with you.)

#imagine 

You and Harry have a serious relasionship. He is leaving to go on tour next week and you are very sad about that. He and you try to spend as much time together as possible. He invited you to go on tour but you said you can’t. You lied about it. The truth is, you have brain cancer and you werent going to survive much longer. You didnt want to think about that and you didnt want to ruin Harry’s career. You took a lot of pics of you and him together before he left. He noticed something was wrong. He tried talking to you seeing if everything was okay but all you would say is, ‘fine’. you were helping him pack one day at his flat when you left to go to the bathroom. Your phone started to ring and Harry picked up, “Hello?” he spoke into the phone, “Yes this is (y/n)’s doctor. She needs a check up to see if the cancer in her brain is progressing, can you have her call me back as soon as possible?” Harry gulded and said, “Yes, bye” they hung up the phone. He was getting choked up. and started to cry. You walk into his bedroom to him crying. You walk up to him and start to rub his back, “Harry, babe, whats wrong?” He replied, ” Your doctor called and he told me that you have brain cancer! whay havent you told me this?! i thought we could trust each other!” You start to cry as well, “Harry im soo sorry! Please forgive me! i didnt want you to put your concert on hold for me! I want you to live your dream instead of me holding it up!” the room was silent. Harry looked over at you and looked you straight in the eyes and said, “(y/n) you are more important than any of my dreams, i love you too much to have my career come before you! I will cancel the tour so me and you can fight through this together and i would stop till then!” his words make you feel a whole lot better.

over the next few months you guys go to constant doctors visits. You had to go through kemo and you felt so bad about yourself. “Harry i understand if you want to be with someone who’s life isnt on the line and a girl that actully has hair.” harry looks at you like you are crazy and says, “You are the most beautiful girl in the world, it doesnt matter what is going on in your life, all that matters is that i will stick by you and help you go through it, and hair doesnt define a persons beauty, its who they are.” you look at him and blush. he kisses you softly.

You walk into the doctors office and he tells you the news, “You will have to get a brain surgery, and very few survive. im so sorry” you can see Harry crying in the chair. You said, “See i knew this would happen..!”
“what if she doesnt get the surgery?” Harry asked. ” She would die a very slow and painfull death from this. it slowly closes down system by system.”

“You get up off the doctors chair and run outta the room, into your car where you lay your head down on the sterring wheel. Harry runs after you and gets into the passenger side. he rubs his hand along you back and said, “Everything will be okay,love.” You look up and see the tear marks all along his face and he notices yours, “How can you say that?! Im gonna die anyways! There is no way i would survive no matter what!” He says once you finnish, ” So? At least we are together. I will marry you toady, lets go! I love you more than anything in the world so why would i give you up that easily?! I will never move on from you, i will never have another relasionship. You are all that matters…so what do say?” you smile and say, “Of course i will marry you! i will never forget you no matter what!” you lean in to kiss him then drive off to get married to him.

Months later He has to go to a quick signing down town where you are left home alone. You feel dizzy. You call Harry, it goes straight to voicemail and you leave a message, “Hey Babe its me. I feel really dizzy and i thought that if anything bad happened while i was gone than i want to just say goodbye and you are the worlds best boyfriend! dont let that go to waste! go find someone else out there to fill in that empty space, im always your no matter what! i love you to the moon and back! tell the rest of the boys i said goodbye! Never foreget me!” you hang up and start to cry. Your dizziness gets worse and worse, you fall on the floor coughing up blood and you close your eyes into a blinding fog.

Harry comes home with Louis to find you on the floor, dead. Harry falls on his knees crying and Louis tears up too. he is kissing you and screaming for you to come back. Louis calls and ambulance to take your body while Harry is turning on his phone which he forgot to do a while ago and see that there is a missed call from you and a voicemail.. he listens to it over and over again crying even harder the more he hears it. He thought to himself thinking, ‘At least she is mine forever and always’

i'll always remember you

It was really sad for me to loose my best friend.i hope the both of us can still be friends as we were before.i know i was wrong to break our friendship.i shouldn't make a decision while i was broken,hurt and angry.i'm really sorry.i miss the day we had together.from the day we broke it,i was miserable.i tried to look strong but i couldn't.every time i see you or your pictures i just fall into pieces.i also tried to replace you (sorry) but i can't find someone like you plus,i don't want anyone else.all i want is you,just you.

you are unique in you own way.you are my dancing partner,my acting partner,the one that i share everything with and now there's no one i can talk to anymore cause you're the only one i trust.i miss those days that we were together.i really really do.but that's the price i pay for letting you go.

this is a song for you.

so glad i got to know you

i shall keep all the memories that we made

the times that we had i keep like a photograph

i'm so thankful the moment

-i miss you-

things happen for a reason

there's a lot of going on in my life right now.sometimes i'm scared to open my eyes to see what today brings but that is something i can just close my eyes and shut my ears.like my brother said 

"Things happen for a reason". 

i always kept the happy thought on my mind but sometimes the bad interrupt.

i did tried to bury in deep inside but i couldn't. sometimes i just feel like crying and let everything go away.but its here stay with me forever.guess i put too much hope on him.(i shouldn't).

 i'm still in my bipolar addiction.i tried to stop but when the heart hurts it feels like i just want to cut myself.

i know i should love my body,but i just want to feel something that hurts more (like physical hurt) than my heart is feeling.

Lately i have been questioning God,i doubted his existence.i know i shouldn't be doubting God.but if you were in my position,you would be doubting God.sometimes there is a moment where i lost hope in Him.

well,it been a long time since i haven't been blogging.i was busy lately.its almost exam for my school.how i miss blogging.anyway i cant stay too long i have to do my school.i actually supposed to be studying but i spare some time for this.maybe later..